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I am thinking about shutting down this blog and just starting a new one. The reason why I started this blog was because I wanted to be just like my ex and have a blog and hopefully blog about all my exciting times with the one I love and to document how our relationship grew. However, after breaking up, I realised that I started this for all the wrong reasons. Blogs should be about myself and should be done because I want to and not for someone else. Hence, www.theanomalousconformer.blogspot.com was born.

Even though no one probably reads this blog, I am going to start afresh and blog about the me and only me :) I know its probably not going to be interesting or that some people may find it even boring, but its me for you. Its going to be all about me, my journey as I find the place where I belong and along the way all the experiences, the good times, the hard times, the sexy times, the sad times, the yummy times and every time in between as well. Im excited about starting anew and hopefully i will do a better job at it this time.


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 Haven't blogged in a long while now. I've been so busy with uni, ive barely had the time. Time has been flying by. This year is almost at an end and in just over 2 months time I will be graduating! *throws hat into air* I so excited about it. I've finally reached that stage in life where I'm a real adult, going out into the adult work, doing adult-y things haha

However, I will still be a student after I graduate as I finally got into the course that I have always dreamed of doing. As a result I've decided to reward myself by going on an overseas trip. Even though it wasnt how I dreamed of at the start of the year, but that's all in the past now and I've only got a bright future to look forward to :D I will be going on an Asian Trip Extravaganza!! Even though its all by myself, im starting to feel im going to like it that way. No baggage (literally and figuraively), no need to take into account what other people think, I can do whatever I like, when I like....and best of all...who i like :P I am definitely going to enjoy this trip so much and hopefully meet many more people along the way. This year is going to go out with a BANG! Visiting 4 Different Countries over 4 weeks on a single airline! Malaysia, Singapore, Hong Kong and Macau! I am SOOOO EXCITED!! Christmas in Singapore, New Years in Hong Kong!

I think this trip will definitely help me grow and become more independent and to let loose before I commit myself for the rest of my life in my dream career. I mean another 4 years of uni means I'm going to be living off 2 minute noodles and takeaway, but its all worth it in the end. Until next time, I will try to blog more often even though circumstances have changed, but I promised myself this will be my own virtual diary from now on, even if nobody reads this :P

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Signing Out,

I've never been the decisive type of guy in my life, but right now I have so many life-changing decisions to make that I am lost with what I want to do in the year 2012 haha If only the world would just end like the movie '2012' so i wont have to make these hard decisions haha just kidding. I am pretty excited about my 'new beginning' next year and even though I dont want to make a decision I just want it to come quickly as it represents a new phase in life.

So the possibilities include:

1. Study Medicine
2. Move to Singapore and work in a pharmacy as a pre-registration pharmacist
3. Stay on the Gold Coast and live at home while I work as a pre-registration pharmacist
4. Move to another major city and work
5. Move to a country town and work
6. Work in disneyland in FLORIDA, USA!!! hahaha
7. Travel and chill out with the little money I have, maybe apply for the holiday and work visa in Malaysia or other country

So many options right? Right now, they are all dependent on whether I get offers such as with medicine and with singapore and stuff but I have applied and I am apparently going to receive a telephone interview with someone from Guardian Pharmacies about possible opportunities of working there. Now THAT is exciting!!! All of them sound really good, the least appealing would either be staying at home or going to a country town as I feel like I need a change after doing the same thing for so long. Damn it...if only I actually had readers on my blog then they could help me decide! haha Oh well, you cant have everything right?

Travelling is very appealing to me right now...however, the thing is I think eventually I want to settle down and come back and live in Australia and own a nice house and have a stable job. however if i move then I dont think i'll have a secure job when I come back, which is kinda sad haha but at least i'd have fun for the however many years i spend abroad right? Anyway if people actually read this blog, then HELP ME DECIDE!! haha

Its dinner time!

Signing Out,

I remember always seeing the Nikon Advertisement on Tv and hearing the song and always feeling chills down my spine whenever I hear this song. I finally listened to the full version today and I am truly obsessed with this song. It is so good on so many levels and it just seems to resonate to a special place in my heart :) enjoy...

Welcome Home - Radical Face

Sleep don't visit, so I choke on sun. And the days blur into one.
And the backs of my eyes hum with things I've never done.
Sheets are swaying from an old clothesline,
like a row of captured ghosts, over old dead grass. Was never much, but we made the most.
Welcome Home.

Ships are launching from my chest. Some have names, but most do not. If you find one, please, let me know what piece I've lost.
Peel the scars from off my back. I don't need them anymore. You can throw them out or keep them in your mason jars.
I've come home.

All my nightmares escaped my head. Bar the door, please don't let them in. You were never supposed to leave. Now my head's splitting at the seams. And I don't know if I can...

Here, beneath my lungs, I feel your thumbs, press into my skin again.

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 I never noticed how many shams there are in pharmacy until i have been working full time in one for the past two weeks. For those who dont know what the word 'sham' means, it means something that is there to trick us into believing it is really good. As i think about it maybe sham isnt the best word to use, maybe its more of a clever use of advertising to make people buy all those different types of products in the pharmacy.

What Im trying to get is that have you ever noticed in the pharmacy there are so many types of Panadol products out there, such as normal panadol, then theres panadol back and neck, panadol back and neck long lasting. I mean they ALL contain exactly the same thing! just 500mg of paracetamol..theres nothing special about them which makes it only travel to the back and neck..it targets the whole body. the thing is you can get a box of 100 panadol tablets for about $10 dollars maybe (or $2 for a no-name brand) but you will be paying up to $6-9 for 24 tablets of the back and neck even though its the same thing. I have had customers who have specifically requested for the back and neck ones despite me explaining its the same thing...but because they saw on tv that it targets the baack and neck, they ONLY want that one haha I would definitely be looking to spend those few dollars that ive saved somewhere else...like a big bowl of ice cream or something.

Then there are those products which have had a 'special advertisement' on one of our news programs about how amazing and how godly the effects of those medicines are. Then guaranteed the next day, hundreds of people will come and ask for that product and all stock will be sold out in like 5 seconds. This was the case with shark cartilage arthritis creams, green tea diet pills, Pawpaw creams, Goat's milk soap. However, after about 2 weeks the hype dies down and no body buys them anymore...If they were that good, people would keep buying them right? its all thanks to advertising that makes or breaks these products, even in the pharmacy where we put customers health in first...haha




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This is my first blog post in months! but anyhow things have been tough these past few months and i believe it will only get tougher. But what to do? No matter how corny or cliche this sounds but tough times can only make me stronger.

Right now I am completing the final semester of my study and after that I can finally place B.Pharm next to my name :D although 4 years ago I went into this thinking this will only be a stepping stone and it was my second choice but after spending so much time on something and thinking about the vast opportunities it could bring me...it doesnt sound so bad anymore! Yesterday I decided that if I dont receive an offer for medicine then I would move to singapore at the end of the year and look for a job as a pharmacist there and complete a year training there and possibly even stay and work for a few years before going on to another country, such as USA or Canada. I only just turning 21 at the end of the year so there is no reason to have commitments or a full-time job for the rest of my life yet. This time is "me time" and for me to go out there and experience the world! Plus, I can develop a VERY impressive CV when I do decide to settle and come back to Australia where I think I will eventually live and 'plant my roots'.

For the first time in my life, I feel as if for the past 20 years of my life, I have been living inside one of those plastic bubbles and now it has finally popped and I am out here by myself. I have been sheltered by my parents, my lover, my friends and even I didnt want to leave that bubble. But now it kinda feels like a lie, the world that I used to believe in, where happy endings exists and bad things don't happen, doesnt really exist. I have also been so focused on thinking about others I didnt even have time to think about me. Thinking about how I can change myself or do things to make those around me more happy. That has always been what I tried to aim for. But now i feel, "what about me? where do i fit in?". If you do all that for others, what happens when they leave? what will I have left? and I came to the conclusion that it would be a person that has changed so much that myself wouldnt recognise or like. Thinking about the things I have done in the past was quite stupid and silly but right now theres no point in looking back and trying to change the past. All I can do is thank the people who has helped me reach this point in life which allows me to get out of this fantasy of mine and live a real and fulfilling life.

For this I say thank you.

Signing Out,